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Ode to Sadness and Indifference
Everything starts with the decision – to stay, to leave, to change or stand still. And I… I wanted to change… “Ieva, I think one of the turtles passed away! Can you come and have a look?” My mum furrows her eyebrows as she gently holds the turtle in her hands. “He was fine yesterday, Read more
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The day I abandoned my religion
Who was I before words? Before words shaped me, I lived in the wildness of emotions – untethered by meaning, unbound by definition. Who am I without words? Carefully crafted rationalizations and definitions justify the steps I take or serve as heavy blankets, shielding me from what’s outside and what’s within. Who will I be Read more
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Prelude to Farewell
You can’t rescue every stray cat you see on the street. However, why are there so many stray cats to begin with? I can’t sleep – once again. My inability to drift to rest means only one thing: I am scrolling the news again. My cheeks are wet. Here we go again. Nothing makes sense. Read more
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The Glass Bead
There are times in one’s life when everything seems a little bit too much. There was this bead inside of me; growing bigger and bigger by each passing day. It was burning me from inside out, and at that given time, all I could do was wonder while I grovelled in pain, with no hope Read more
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Kaleidoscopic Love
There is always someone somewhere discovering the other life, the other self, stepping off into uncharted territory. Yet, in the midst of knowing this, I also know that I am so small, so ordinary, and do have limited time on my hands to be able to envision the majority of the world. My view, like Read more
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That corner of isolation
I wish that after 14 days of self-imposed isolation, I would have something profound to say. I simply do not. It wasn’t that hard; at least the first half was not that hard. I mostly felt like a grizzly bear hyperventilating in a cave tucked away from everybody’s gaze. I was too familiar with Read more